Apostle Saint Paul

Apostle Saint Paul
Until conversion, Paul has enthusiastically walked the Judaic path with absolute conviction.
It suddenly becomes the opposite of it by the encounter with Christ in Damascus. I can't imagine what christ's experience at that time was like. Paul's life, however, then begins to run in the exact opposite direction. For the Christian Church which has been persecuted up until then, he will now work with great power. The experience in Damascus must have been serious if it saw from here. In this world, if there is no great thing, a conversion like Paul does not happen.

And Paul didn't want or admire it from himself. It was done so. So when Paul says that he is chosen as an apostle from the Lord Jesus, he is clearly aware that until then he is a sinner who has persecuted the Lord's Church to the fullest extent. Paul does not hide it at all. Then, two things coexist in Paul's mind. In the letter, one side says that there is a duty to lead everyone as an apostle chosen from God. And at the same time, because he is more sinful than anyone else, he is said to be a person who is not qualified to teach and guide people. It is a tension which can not be said indescribably.

For this reason, Paul is compelled to think that it is not originally from his own intention or desire that he is an apostle, and that all is a gift of God.

"In fact, because I persecuted the Church of God, it is the smallest of the apostles, not worthy of being called an apostle, but because of the grace of God, I received today. "1st Corinth 15; 9-10.